Yes, I think I am finally getting back on track, after getting my exam results last week and finding i'd failed half of them I have realised how much I really need to do.
And Im feeling a whole lot better, failing half of my exams seems to have spurred me on to do better so I am kind of liking being in school at the moment.
Life is on the up I guess :)
Tuesday 15 March 2011
Thursday 3 March 2011
Beyond a joke!
Wow, can school get any worse?!
Im in sixth form now (big mistake) and we have been told we have to complete this extra project called cope (certificate of personal excellence). I really dont see how it benefits me, we have to fill out a load of forms explaining why we chose sixth form, how we are liking it and then we have to do all this extra work for example planning and doing an oral presentation and setting up a project to help the community. Fair enough the project was fun, we organised a Halloween party for the Welford Cubs and Scouts so that is all sorted but now we have to do an oral presentation to half of the year group and I am dreading it, ive never been good with that sort of thing :/
I am not exactly on top of all the forms we have to do but what do you expect with all the work you get at A level?! And now my form tutor is saying if I havent got it done by tomorrow then I will be taken out of class to complete it! What a load of rubbish! Surely my lessons are more important than a folder full of crap. The only reason why the school is so desperate for us to complete theese folders is because they get £1000 for each folder which is of a high standard, so really we are doing a load of work when they get the reward for it.
I am not a happy bunny about this!
I must sound like a right loser right now, all I seem to do is complain :/
Im in sixth form now (big mistake) and we have been told we have to complete this extra project called cope (certificate of personal excellence). I really dont see how it benefits me, we have to fill out a load of forms explaining why we chose sixth form, how we are liking it and then we have to do all this extra work for example planning and doing an oral presentation and setting up a project to help the community. Fair enough the project was fun, we organised a Halloween party for the Welford Cubs and Scouts so that is all sorted but now we have to do an oral presentation to half of the year group and I am dreading it, ive never been good with that sort of thing :/
I am not exactly on top of all the forms we have to do but what do you expect with all the work you get at A level?! And now my form tutor is saying if I havent got it done by tomorrow then I will be taken out of class to complete it! What a load of rubbish! Surely my lessons are more important than a folder full of crap. The only reason why the school is so desperate for us to complete theese folders is because they get £1000 for each folder which is of a high standard, so really we are doing a load of work when they get the reward for it.
I am not a happy bunny about this!
I must sound like a right loser right now, all I seem to do is complain :/
Monday 28 February 2011
You know that feeling,..
the one where everything you do feels completely pointless.
Im going through a bit of that right now, I just feel completely run down and like I have no energy left to put towards anything.
It feels like I have absolutely nothing to look forward to anymore, all I seem to do is school work, homework and then house work, I have no time to do any of the stuff I enjoy anymore. I love drawing and reading, but I cant find time to do either of them. I have a canvas ready for me to paint but no time to do it and a scrap book which is half complete. I just wish I could get a break from all the school work and just have a bit of time for me, I know everyone says 'make time for yourself' it just isnt that easy!
We have just had half term and it most definately hasnt felt like a break from school, it felt as though I have been doing the same amount of work that I would be doing everyday at school, its horrible! I swear half term is supposed to give people time off, so why cant they just give us a break to do what we want?!
My head is so messed up right now and I feel like im behind with everything and I just dont know how to catch up again.
I have a huge list of all the things I need to do but I just cant motivate myself to finish them, they have to be fun and creative for me to want to do them and they most definately are not, most of them are writing essays and I just cant stick to it, I know I have to and I am trying, its just hard.
I think I need a break for myself and do what I want for a little while then I will be able to get back to doing it.I just cant make time for that with all the deadlines I have :/
I just wish I could see how beneficial A levels are for me and what I can do once I have got them, we have to apply for University in a couple of months and I still dont know if I want to go, I am totally confused and it feels like my time is
running out fast, I just dont know what to do right now.
When i'm with Tom it feels like the only time I am truely happy, I dont know what I would be like without him :/
I am not coping well with life at the moment.
Im going through a bit of that right now, I just feel completely run down and like I have no energy left to put towards anything.
It feels like I have absolutely nothing to look forward to anymore, all I seem to do is school work, homework and then house work, I have no time to do any of the stuff I enjoy anymore. I love drawing and reading, but I cant find time to do either of them. I have a canvas ready for me to paint but no time to do it and a scrap book which is half complete. I just wish I could get a break from all the school work and just have a bit of time for me, I know everyone says 'make time for yourself' it just isnt that easy!
We have just had half term and it most definately hasnt felt like a break from school, it felt as though I have been doing the same amount of work that I would be doing everyday at school, its horrible! I swear half term is supposed to give people time off, so why cant they just give us a break to do what we want?!
My head is so messed up right now and I feel like im behind with everything and I just dont know how to catch up again.
I have a huge list of all the things I need to do but I just cant motivate myself to finish them, they have to be fun and creative for me to want to do them and they most definately are not, most of them are writing essays and I just cant stick to it, I know I have to and I am trying, its just hard.
I think I need a break for myself and do what I want for a little while then I will be able to get back to doing it.I just cant make time for that with all the deadlines I have :/
I just wish I could see how beneficial A levels are for me and what I can do once I have got them, we have to apply for University in a couple of months and I still dont know if I want to go, I am totally confused and it feels like my time is
running out fast, I just dont know what to do right now.
When i'm with Tom it feels like the only time I am truely happy, I dont know what I would be like without him :/
I am not coping well with life at the moment.
Tuesday 1 February 2011
I went away for one weekend and...
... my parents bought a puppy! YES, a frigging puppy! Arghh!
I was away for what, three days?!
Im pretty sure they bought it when I was away so I couldnt put up a fight, they know how much I really dont want another dog but they got one anyway. Mum gets what she wants right? Even if it hurts others!
You may want to know the reason why I dont want another dog, I think its a pretty valid reason.
A couple of months ago we had 4 dogs and they were all lovely but because there were so many of them they took a very pack like instinct and were very protective of the family, and when they started getting nasty towards people and actually bit Tom Mum decided that she had to get rid of the two dominant ones, we rehomed Dougie and Izzy and were left with just the two we have now :(
Dougie was my dog and he was amazing, I really loved him to bits and it felt like the closest I had been to a dog since my colie, Jake. I used to do everything with Doug, he was my little running buddy and I miss him dearly, I didnt have that much choice in getting rid of him but it had to be done for peoples safety.
We have had just Mia and Lulu for about six months now and it is lovely, there is no longer any chewing and mess everywhere and they are even trusted to have the run of the house during the day, I know when we get this new puppy they will lose all of that and be confined to the kitchen again. It just feels to me like we have got rid of two dogs because of the pack instinct and now we are getting another dog, it is just going to go back to the way it was, it just doesnt seem fair :'(
I was away for what, three days?!
Im pretty sure they bought it when I was away so I couldnt put up a fight, they know how much I really dont want another dog but they got one anyway. Mum gets what she wants right? Even if it hurts others!
You may want to know the reason why I dont want another dog, I think its a pretty valid reason.
A couple of months ago we had 4 dogs and they were all lovely but because there were so many of them they took a very pack like instinct and were very protective of the family, and when they started getting nasty towards people and actually bit Tom Mum decided that she had to get rid of the two dominant ones, we rehomed Dougie and Izzy and were left with just the two we have now :(
Dougie was my dog and he was amazing, I really loved him to bits and it felt like the closest I had been to a dog since my colie, Jake. I used to do everything with Doug, he was my little running buddy and I miss him dearly, I didnt have that much choice in getting rid of him but it had to be done for peoples safety.
We have had just Mia and Lulu for about six months now and it is lovely, there is no longer any chewing and mess everywhere and they are even trusted to have the run of the house during the day, I know when we get this new puppy they will lose all of that and be confined to the kitchen again. It just feels to me like we have got rid of two dogs because of the pack instinct and now we are getting another dog, it is just going to go back to the way it was, it just doesnt seem fair :'(
Monday 24 January 2011
Tom Mee.
Its time I wrote about Tom.
I took a huge step way back in 2009 when I told Tom I liked him and now look where I am! I had never been brave enough to tell anyone I had liked them before but I found the courage with Tom and I am very VERY glad I did!
He is absolutely amazing! I can talk to him about ANYTHING and he will help as best he can, I seriously cant imagine what it would be like without him and I really really hope I never have to find out! :)
It feels to me like we have both come out of our shells because of each other? I am way more confident and so is he, we can both do things now which we never dreamed possible and it is magical, I never thought I would find someone as good as him, but I have and I am not going to let go easily!
He is a beautiful person, inside and out, with a very pure heart! (I ignore him when he says his heart is black and rotten, he doesnt know what he is on about :P)
I know most people would be reading this and thinking 'eugh, pass me the sick bucket' but I dont think I show him enough how much he means to me so Tom if your reading this, I Love You! :) xxxx
I took a huge step way back in 2009 when I told Tom I liked him and now look where I am! I had never been brave enough to tell anyone I had liked them before but I found the courage with Tom and I am very VERY glad I did!
He is absolutely amazing! I can talk to him about ANYTHING and he will help as best he can, I seriously cant imagine what it would be like without him and I really really hope I never have to find out! :)
It feels to me like we have both come out of our shells because of each other? I am way more confident and so is he, we can both do things now which we never dreamed possible and it is magical, I never thought I would find someone as good as him, but I have and I am not going to let go easily!
He is a beautiful person, inside and out, with a very pure heart! (I ignore him when he says his heart is black and rotten, he doesnt know what he is on about :P)
I know most people would be reading this and thinking 'eugh, pass me the sick bucket' but I dont think I show him enough how much he means to me so Tom if your reading this, I Love You! :) xxxx
Wednesday 5 January 2011
Toms' 16th Birthday!
Well what fun that week was! Thoroughly enjoyed it!
It started off that the snow was threatening to stop me seeing him at all and I really really couldnt let that happen! So mum suggested asking Carolyn if I could be dropped over on the Tuesday evening, thankfully she said yes! Surprised Tom again which is always terrifying, Carolyn is always very welcoming and just laughs along with me, all the boys scatter to various rooms and will just comes running (he is incredibly sweet, bit bossy at times tho ;) lol bless him!)
It was pretty lucky that Carolyn said yes because on wednesday morning the snow that was predicted hit my house and I would have been trapped! But yeah so I was there and had the best time, eventhough I am definately not very good at bowling! :P Im pretty sure Tom enjoyed his birthday in the end, I was just keeping him smiling, trying anyway, but I think I suceeded :D
There is something about Toms village that just makes you want to be outside! I have always loved being outside, well when it isnt pouring with rain, but when im at Toms I just want to be out walking the dogs and stuff even if it is raining, i've never lived anywhere with places you can walk and take the dogs out and stuff and now I have the tiny small dogs, one who could walk for miles but does get tired and the other one who has really bad joints so cant go far, I cant take the dogs for really long walks, just wait till I move out eh :P
Wish that would come sooner, and I could just quit sixthform (it is pointless to me) and go to college and study something that actually interests me :/ If I fail my exams next week then they will possibly kick me out, im not going to purposely not try but im really thinking im not going to do very well :/
COMPLETELY OFF SUBJECT THEN!!
Bit late but, Happy 16th Birthday Tommy! I love you! <3 xxx
It started off that the snow was threatening to stop me seeing him at all and I really really couldnt let that happen! So mum suggested asking Carolyn if I could be dropped over on the Tuesday evening, thankfully she said yes! Surprised Tom again which is always terrifying, Carolyn is always very welcoming and just laughs along with me, all the boys scatter to various rooms and will just comes running (he is incredibly sweet, bit bossy at times tho ;) lol bless him!)
It was pretty lucky that Carolyn said yes because on wednesday morning the snow that was predicted hit my house and I would have been trapped! But yeah so I was there and had the best time, eventhough I am definately not very good at bowling! :P Im pretty sure Tom enjoyed his birthday in the end, I was just keeping him smiling, trying anyway, but I think I suceeded :D
There is something about Toms village that just makes you want to be outside! I have always loved being outside, well when it isnt pouring with rain, but when im at Toms I just want to be out walking the dogs and stuff even if it is raining, i've never lived anywhere with places you can walk and take the dogs out and stuff and now I have the tiny small dogs, one who could walk for miles but does get tired and the other one who has really bad joints so cant go far, I cant take the dogs for really long walks, just wait till I move out eh :P
Wish that would come sooner, and I could just quit sixthform (it is pointless to me) and go to college and study something that actually interests me :/ If I fail my exams next week then they will possibly kick me out, im not going to purposely not try but im really thinking im not going to do very well :/
COMPLETELY OFF SUBJECT THEN!!
Bit late but, Happy 16th Birthday Tommy! I love you! <3 xxx
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