Maybe I have a shot?

I've been taking lots of photos of my own and other people's pets recently and they aren't too bad! So maybe I have a shot at this whole photographer thing? :D

 <- isn't she just adorable!

 <- MY ABSOLUTE FAVOURITE! :D

Sixth form ball.

Sixth form ball was actually pretty good! The food was amazing and the award ceremony was hilarious. First we all went to Fresh's house and her dad dropped us off at Highgate House; we were made to wait for about an hour for anything to start so by then we were absolutely starving but it was definitely worth the wait! There was a small disco and that was about it but it was just fun to have everyone together for one last time. Here are a few photos from the night. :)

Wow! I completely forgot all about this! Oops! I was just reading my last post about how I was enjoying school, well that really didn't last long lol. I cant wait to get out of there now.
Recently I have got my place in college so I am definitely studying photography next year, i'm unbelievably excited :D And I am very close to booking my driving test which I cant wait for! Im so excited to be able to go out and do what I want, when I want :D Not looking forward to having to pay for petrol though, my £30 a week wages just wont stretch I don't think lol :P
This Friday night is the sixth form end of year ball which is bound to be absolutely awful due to the lack of interest, honestly no one wants to go, its stupidly expensive and doesn't even sound that great. The only reason i'm going is because i've got that most beautiful to dress to wear and its the last big thing I will get  to do with my friends, after this we will all end up going different ways :( Another  downside to this ball is that they wont let us bring people who don't attend the school which really sucks! I would love love love to take Tom, it would be perfect but I cant :( However the amazing guy he is, he is going to bring a shirt and stuff to mine so he can change into so he can get some photos with me, he doesn't want to look like a chav standing next to me in my gorgeous dress apparently :P lol!

So just  a short and sweet post for now, i'll let you know how the Ball goes at the weekend!<3

Back on track.

Yes, I think I am finally getting back on track, after getting my exam results last week and finding i'd failed half of them I have realised how much I really need to do.
And Im feeling a whole lot better, failing half of my exams seems to have spurred me on to do better so I am kind of liking being in school at the moment.
Life is on the up I guess :)

Beyond a joke!

Wow, can school get any worse?!

Im in sixth form now (big mistake) and we have been told we have to complete this extra project called cope (certificate of personal excellence). I really dont see how it benefits me, we have to fill out a load of forms explaining why we chose sixth form, how we are liking it and then we have to do all this extra work for example planning and doing an oral presentation and setting up a project to help the community. Fair enough the project was fun, we organised a Halloween party for the Welford Cubs and Scouts so that is all sorted but now we have to do an oral presentation to half of the year group and I am dreading it, ive never been good with that sort of thing :/
I am not exactly on top of all the forms we have to do but what do you expect with all the work you get at A level?! And now my form tutor is saying if I havent got it done by tomorrow then I will be taken out of class to complete it! What a load of rubbish! Surely my lessons are more important than a folder full of crap. The only reason why the school is so desperate for us to complete theese folders is because they get £1000 for each folder which is of a high standard, so really we are doing a load of work when they get the reward for it.
I am not a happy bunny about this!

I must sound like a right loser right now, all I seem to do is complain :/

You know that feeling,..

the one where everything you do feels completely pointless.

Im going through a bit of that right now, I just feel completely run down and like I have no energy left to put towards anything.
It feels like I have absolutely nothing to look forward to anymore, all I seem to do is school work, homework and then house work, I have no time to do any of the stuff I enjoy anymore. I love drawing and reading, but I cant find time to do either of them. I have a canvas ready for me to paint but no time to do it and a scrap book which is half complete. I just wish I could get a break from all the school work and just have a bit of time for me, I know everyone says 'make time for yourself' it just isnt that easy!
We have just had half term and it most definately hasnt felt like a break from school, it felt as though I have been doing the same amount of work that I would be doing everyday at school, its horrible! I swear half term is supposed to give people time off, so why cant they just give us a break to do what we want?!
My head is so messed up right now and I feel like im behind with everything and I just dont know how to catch up again.

I have a huge list of all the things I need to do but I just cant motivate myself to finish them, they have to be fun and creative for me to want to do them and they most definately are not, most of them are writing essays and I just cant stick to it, I know I have to and I am trying, its just hard.
I think I need a break for myself and do what I want for a little while then I will be able to get back to doing it.I just cant make time for that with all the deadlines I have :/

I just wish I could see how beneficial A levels are for me and what I can do once I have got them, we have to apply for University in a couple of months and I still dont know if I want to go, I am totally confused and it feels like my time is
running out fast, I just dont know what to do right now.

When i'm with Tom it feels like the only time I am truely happy, I dont know what I would be like without him :/

I am not coping well with life at the moment.

I went away for one weekend and...

... my parents bought a puppy! YES, a frigging puppy! Arghh!
I was away for what, three days?!
Im pretty sure they bought it when I was away so I couldnt put up a fight, they know how much I really dont want another dog but they got one anyway. Mum gets what she wants right? Even if it hurts others!
You may want to know the reason why I dont want another dog, I think its a pretty valid reason.
A couple of months ago we had 4 dogs and they were all lovely but because there were so many of them they took a very pack like instinct and were very protective of the family, and when they started getting nasty towards people and actually bit Tom Mum decided that she had to get rid of the two dominant ones, we rehomed Dougie and Izzy and were left with just the two we have now :(
Dougie was my dog and he was amazing, I really loved him to bits and it felt like the closest I had been to a dog since my colie, Jake. I used to do everything with Doug, he was my little running buddy and I miss him dearly, I didnt have that much choice in getting rid of him but it had to be done for peoples safety.
We have had just Mia and Lulu for about six months now and it is lovely, there is no longer any chewing and mess everywhere and they are even trusted to have the run of the house during the day, I know when we get this new puppy they will lose all of that and be confined to the kitchen again. It just feels to me like we have got rid of two dogs because of the pack instinct and now we are getting another dog, it is just going to go back to the way it was, it just doesnt seem fair :'(